Today, like most days, I find myself thinking "what did I actually accomplish today?" My to-do list is still a mile long and the day is quickly winding down and boy, am I exhausted! :) As I was reading my Bible today I came across a familiar passage but it really struck a chord in me today.....
"That same day, Jesus left the house and went to sit by the sea.
Large crowds gathered around Him,
and He got into a boat on the sea and sat there.
The crowd stood on the shore waiting for His teaching.
And so Jesus began to teach."
I love how Jesus left the house to go find some "alone time" but they (large crowds) found out, tracked him down and gathered around Him. Oh can I relate. LOL! Anytime I think I can
hide have a moment alone, someone finds me and calls the rest of the siblings with a "here she is!" :) Oye! So much for being alone. LOL!
Then Jesus gets into a boat and sits there probably thinking maybe they'll go away but they don't they just stand there watching Him and waiting for Him to teach them and so He does. Kind of like when I sit on the couch and I am engulfed by 5 small children each wanting me to read, listen, look at, or do something with them all at the same time! They will seriously stand or sit there and wait for me to do whatever it is for as long as it takes. Truth is, sometimes I just don't want to do, listen, talk, read or play another minute. Sometimes I fantasize about laying in the hammock, sipping ice tea and reading my book all.by.myself. LOL!
Oh and the noise.....there is many times I just have to say "ok, it's time to just be quiet" because their nonstop chatter can work on my last nerve. (Just being honest) and like Jesus I just want to get away for a bit to think but then I look into my babies' eyes and see how they are waiting....waiting for me to teach them what it looks like to live and love sacrificially by my words and deeds. They are waiting for me to teach them about Jesus and what that looks like in our day to day world. And so, even though I feel wrung out and parched some days I continue to pour out, to give, to love and to serve because that is exactly what Jesus did.
Besides, the day will come when I will have no little children hanging on my clothes, saying "mommy" every 3 seconds, or needing my attention and then I can live out that fantasy in the hammock. Of course, then I will probably be wishing I could turn back the hands of time and have the passel of little's engulfing me again....oh my fickle heart.
So although my list is long and never seems to dwindle down I know that what I am accomplishing each day is far greater and has an eternal impact.
List shmist...my little's are waiting.... :)