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Running against R.A.D....

This is to record my running journey. I'm running against Reactive Attachment Disorder (R.A.D.) You see, R.A.D. has been running my life for far too long and it's time for me to run against it. How did I get here? Here's a little of my backstory for your viewing pleasure....

It started almost 7 years ago now when a disease I had never heard of entered my life and proceeded to dominate and decimate me, my family and our idyllic  lives. However, it wasn't until about 5 years ago that we finally realized what we were up against and began taking steps through research, prayer, psychiatrists, therapy and anything else we could come up with to "fix" our hurting child.  

Everything I had was poured into finding the key to helping our son and in turn, helping our family get back to some semblance of normalcy. I stopped taking care of me and it shows! I've tried many things over the years to lose the extra weight and gain my health but without fail I'd "fall off the wagon" and end up heavier and sicker than before. 

I love food and I didn't want to stop living and enjoying life. What to do?? Fast forward to the present....After seeing progress and healing for our son it's my turn now! I've begun to run and I LOVE it! I was a long distance runner in high school but that was many moons ago. LOL! I don't remember loving it then the way I do now either. I think the fact that I know I'm taking care of me and that I have some time just for me helps immensely! :) I haven't lost my weight but I am a work in progress. I am slowly making healthier food choices (not that we ate unhealthy but my portions were too large!) and soda and junk food is only an occasional treat for me. I have faith that the weight will come off as long as I continue to exercise and make wise food choices. In the meantime, I am deliriously happy that I can run. God is an amazing creator and when I run I can't help but think of how marvelous our bodies are! I am slowly gaining mileage and am ecstatic that I'm up to 2 miles now! I'm not fast (yet!) but my goal is a 5K by this fall. Actually, I'm a very goal oriented person so I already have lots of goals but this one is my first goal. :)

I run against R.A.D. My running helps reduce my stress, brings clarity and focus to my battered mind. This disease ran my life for far too long and now I'm choosing to run against it. No longer will it dominate me! We believe our son has been redeemed and delivered from R.A.D and as I run I believe it's helping my brain to be redeemed and delivered from the after effects of R.A.D. too. 

God is so good and faithful and I can't thank Him enough for this precious gift of running!!


Mama Ds Dozen said…
LOVE it! Running Against RAD. Oh.My.Yes.

Good job on the exercise! I'm sure the weight will begin to come off. I've changed my diet significantly (eating less than 1000 calories most days), but putting in the time for exercise hasn't happened as much as I'd like. I was a long distance runner in Jr. High . . . almost 40 years ago. Yikes! Would love to do it again.

Sorry about the recent Autism diagnosis. :(

Hope you are having a BLESSED summer!

mama of 12

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